spontaneous combustion

omg. alan is having dinner with his boss on friday. i can't wait to hear every single detail. which i probably won't get bc he gives you the short end of the story every time. funnily (is that actually a word?) he has been telling juan a lot of things lately which is fine by me bc at least juan will tell me what happened. anywho, i think alan is supposed to "clear" things up with his boss or something. who knows, he'll probably just end up at his boss' house again... but i guess i will have to wait and see what happens.

lizzie got shipped off today. we spent her last day meeting juan at mcdonald's at the busiest time of the day. he was supposed to buy HSM3 but he didnt have enough money so we just went home and i said my last goodbyes to lizzie and gave her a huge hug. i guess i hadn't really thought about it more until today but you always miss your friends when you are sitting around in your room thinking of who you can call to hang out and then remembering, oh yeah my friend is literally on the other side of the world.

anyways, i spent the rest of my day returning stuff and then spending the money right back again. i refrained from adding to my death cab collection and got a book onsale at borders instead, one of my favorite places to waste time for hours on end. surprisingly enough i spend most of my time upstairs looking at travel, food fashion and health books. usually in between that i will look at literature and magazines and of course music+art.


so basically i am still really confused about what i want to do with my life. im thinking i should just pick a school, apply and go with it. i honestly don't know where i want to go to school, or where i want to live. sighhhh. which is really annoying and frustrating bc i used to know exactly what i wanted. and then the UNH debacle happened and my life got put into a shredder. wtf. im jealous of people who actually have it together. on the other hand maybe i am not as confused as i think and am just using this to waste time and procrastinate like i do about everything. hmm something to think about.

back to my terrible taste in television. i used to watch shows like The Hills bc it was a nice, entertaining break from my real life and it was hilarious to watch people who seemingly have everything complain about the silliest things. after awhile now, it is just getting to me and it's just not as entertaining anymore bc i look at these people, my age and older who just whine and moan and act like they are still little kids. seriously? grow up already. if you don't like someone, fine don't like them. you don't have to fake it. you don't have to force a friendship with everyone.